It's half past five in the morning and I am going to work in little under an hour o_O. I'll be doing the same thing tomorrow, and then attend a firepreparation meeting later on in the evening. On Wednesday I will work at the café from ten to six, on Thursday I will first work at Clas Ohlson from seven to three, before working at the café from four to half past nine, aaaand on Friday I work the café from ten to four, before I have to run like hell over to Clas to work there from four to nine o_O
I know for some this is a totally normal week, but I am so unused to working this seems all a bit daunting. But I am set on managing! I need the money, and if other people can do it, then hell, so can I!
*zooms around*
Monday, 11 February 2008
Thursday, 7 February 2008
Baaaaaaaaack! (again)
Backuru desu! (<- see my pwning japanese guiz) Soooo, I came back from Sweden the other day, on Tuesday, and started my first day at my new job yesterday, Wedensday. It is ok, I waiter, clean and do the dishes at this cute little café. Well, that is what I am doing at the time being, as apparently all newbies get these "fun" chores when they start. Anyway, the customers there are actually really sweet. It's a place for the older generation of my town to meet up, and they have done so for years and years. They know all the waitresses and was quite keen on learning my name and introducing themselves to me too ^^. And some of the older gents think it's so fun to play young again and hit on me XD Hahaha, apparently I've had more courtiers than anyone else of the waitresses during my first day. I think this is because I have a more 'oldfashioned' appeal, while the other girls have bleached hair/and or a more modern look. I look a hell of a lot like my grandma, and these guys are around her age. I bet many know her and see me in her when she was young (man, she was a girl about town I tell you! She woke up to guys brawling outside her house for who got to ask her out). I remember when I was a kid my grandpa used to take me there with him ^^. So it's really cosy to see some familliar faces. Oh, and the thing with these old gent's flirtation; it's not the least bit uncomfortable. They know it's just a little game and they are so gentelmanly about it. No sleazy pedo attitude or anything ^^, they even ask beforehand if they are allowed.
But yeah! I should be telling you guys all about Sweden! It was awesome, pwned a lot of ass. As you know, I was ill when I left and not too keen on the 6 hour trainride. Lol, half along the way a train ahead of us had managed to drive out of it's track, so we had to change over to bus for a stop and then go back on another train heading for Stockholm. With my luggage and fever, I was soooo not happy about it. I had a LOT of luggage (I always pack everything in sight when I pack... You never know what you might need! D:) and could just feel my temprature rise as I struggled with it XD But when I got on the other train I was a bit happy about it. At least it gave me a break in the long, boring trainride.
Backpackers In, the place we stayed at, was a really cosy place. People from all over the world trekking around, they had loads of stories to tell XD There were also quite a bit of cute Asians thuuur. Including a group of otaku Koreans <3.
The second day there was the signing and the concert. We left like two hours before the signing started, just to check out the line but ended up queueing. It was cold as all get out and I died, but it was nothing compared to the death I'd experience later. While we stood in line there was a lot of official cameras running around filming the line and a radio team came up to have a quick interview with me and Emelie. It went something like this:
How old are you and where are you from?
I'm 19 and from Norway
Wow, that shows a lot of dedication. How long have you been fans?
About one and a half year, a bit more.
How long have you queued here?
For about two hours.
Are you nervous for meeting them?
Nawww, we're just cold.
But you are looking forward to the concert?
Definitely! *goofy grin*
Wow, my two seconds of faaaaaaaaaaaaaame desu! (well, me and Emelie. I'm just such a bad attentionwhore). Anyway, the signing was totally sweet and the guys were lovies. They were really eager and happy. I could go on and on from here, but I'm afraid I'll just start fangirl-ranting and.... none of us want that. I'll just say I got my stuff signed, raped Shuu for a hug and left again.
The concert is somewhat of a blur, and I mostly just remember headbanging, lights, music and Shuu (yeah I am a shuu-whore, you guys mind? D:). Apparently I fainted twice or some, but I can't really remember it. The concert was really good though, I love how they lit the light on Shuu everytime he played a solo... I mean... *cough* I liked how Satoshi managed to talk to the audience in actually quite understandable English. TAKE A LESSON AND LEARN KYO, IT CAN BE DONE!
The day after me and Emelie took a train back to Göteborg, and the same thing happened (had to change train for bus). Just this time we were all stuffed on a too small bus and had to stand there the rest of the way. But we got home eventually!
And wow, I ate SOOO much Sushi there <3
But yeah! I should be telling you guys all about Sweden! It was awesome, pwned a lot of ass. As you know, I was ill when I left and not too keen on the 6 hour trainride. Lol, half along the way a train ahead of us had managed to drive out of it's track, so we had to change over to bus for a stop and then go back on another train heading for Stockholm. With my luggage and fever, I was soooo not happy about it. I had a LOT of luggage (I always pack everything in sight when I pack... You never know what you might need! D:) and could just feel my temprature rise as I struggled with it XD But when I got on the other train I was a bit happy about it. At least it gave me a break in the long, boring trainride.
Backpackers In, the place we stayed at, was a really cosy place. People from all over the world trekking around, they had loads of stories to tell XD There were also quite a bit of cute Asians thuuur. Including a group of otaku Koreans <3.
The second day there was the signing and the concert. We left like two hours before the signing started, just to check out the line but ended up queueing. It was cold as all get out and I died, but it was nothing compared to the death I'd experience later. While we stood in line there was a lot of official cameras running around filming the line and a radio team came up to have a quick interview with me and Emelie. It went something like this:
How old are you and where are you from?
I'm 19 and from Norway
Wow, that shows a lot of dedication. How long have you been fans?
About one and a half year, a bit more.
How long have you queued here?
For about two hours.
Are you nervous for meeting them?
Nawww, we're just cold.
But you are looking forward to the concert?
Definitely! *goofy grin*
Wow, my two seconds of faaaaaaaaaaaaaame desu! (well, me and Emelie. I'm just such a bad attentionwhore). Anyway, the signing was totally sweet and the guys were lovies. They were really eager and happy. I could go on and on from here, but I'm afraid I'll just start fangirl-ranting and.... none of us want that. I'll just say I got my stuff signed, raped Shuu for a hug and left again.
The concert is somewhat of a blur, and I mostly just remember headbanging, lights, music and Shuu (yeah I am a shuu-whore, you guys mind? D:). Apparently I fainted twice or some, but I can't really remember it. The concert was really good though, I love how they lit the light on Shuu everytime he played a solo... I mean... *cough* I liked how Satoshi managed to talk to the audience in actually quite understandable English. TAKE A LESSON AND LEARN KYO, IT CAN BE DONE!
The day after me and Emelie took a train back to Göteborg, and the same thing happened (had to change train for bus). Just this time we were all stuffed on a too small bus and had to stand there the rest of the way. But we got home eventually!
And wow, I ate SOOO much Sushi there <3
Tuesday, 29 January 2008
Leaving in a few hours
Yup! Here's me leaving for Sweden again in a few hours ^^
I am dreadfully tired, my head aches and my eyes are burning and yet I haven't managed to get even a tiny bit of sleep. Lately it seems I haven't been able to sleep without some painkillers at all and this has been yet another all nighter without sleep. Last night I didn't fall asleep until six am and woke up around half past ten for later to drag my sorry ass to a job interview. No idea how that went but I got a mail from another place I went to an interview with and they wanted me to start on the 6th. The day after I arrive from Sweden, oh joy. Oh well, I am actually quite happy I managed to bag it ^^
I hope I get to sleep some on the over six hour long trainride tomorrow, just so I am not completely dead meat when I arrive. Though I do usually manage on little sleep pretty well as long as something happens all the time ^^ But if I take a painkiller on the train I have a feeling I'll sleep soundly for at least an hour or so.
Can't wait though!! Not just the concert but the entire trip ^^ Gonna be wai fun!
See you all in a week or so! Take care of yourselves! I don't want to come back and read only about loss and despair on my flist you guys D:
I am dreadfully tired, my head aches and my eyes are burning and yet I haven't managed to get even a tiny bit of sleep. Lately it seems I haven't been able to sleep without some painkillers at all and this has been yet another all nighter without sleep. Last night I didn't fall asleep until six am and woke up around half past ten for later to drag my sorry ass to a job interview. No idea how that went but I got a mail from another place I went to an interview with and they wanted me to start on the 6th. The day after I arrive from Sweden, oh joy. Oh well, I am actually quite happy I managed to bag it ^^
I hope I get to sleep some on the over six hour long trainride tomorrow, just so I am not completely dead meat when I arrive. Though I do usually manage on little sleep pretty well as long as something happens all the time ^^ But if I take a painkiller on the train I have a feeling I'll sleep soundly for at least an hour or so.
Can't wait though!! Not just the concert but the entire trip ^^ Gonna be wai fun!
See you all in a week or so! Take care of yourselves! I don't want to come back and read only about loss and despair on my flist you guys D:
Sunday, 27 January 2008
ARG!
Yeah, I am leaving on Tuesday to Stockholm to watch girugämesh together with my friend Emelie. But, always a but, OF COURSE I AM DOWN WITH THE FUCKING FLU!! I am feeling HORRIBLE! I have over 38c in fever, which is normally not that much, but for me who NEVER have fever this is a sensation. If I am not better by Tuesday I am going to smash someone/something's head in... I suppose I'll just have to live on painkillers to try and keep the fever and the headache, throatache and backache away. SO DAMN TYPICAL! I want to be at my fighting best seeing girugämesh, I've been looking forward to this since they announced it .___.
Tuesday, 22 January 2008
Dude, this disappoints...
Warning: This post might contain slight overreaction towards a happening. Whining and swearing will ensue.
Dir en grey is of course not known as the best dudes when it comes to appreciating and showing concern towards their fans. There are a lot of stories where people feel completely ignored, even after having done a lot to try and make the band feel appreciated. Anyway, in the end it often turns out they're just awkward guys who don’t really know what to do with their new-won and strange fame. They're forgiven, mostly. I mean, it's about the music, we can let go of a lot of weirdeties from them. But... sometimes, it makes it really hard not to quirk and eyebrow and go major WTF-ing of their choice of behaviour towards their fans.
As some of you know, Dir en grey has a fanclub, it's called A knot. There's nothing weird or quirky about that right? Most of these bands do after all. A knot also happens to ONLY be open for people with a Japanese address. People not living in Japan? Well screw you mostly. Anyway, that is not TOO weird either. A bit sour for people who want to join, but still. Now, Dir en grey also happen to like to release a lot of exclusive DVDs for these precious A knot members, which we oversea fans obviously can't get a hold of unless it's illegal. NOW comes what majorly disappoints me and upsets me as a fan. DIR EN GREY RELEASE LIVE DVDS OF THE FOLLOWING FOR A KNOT ONLY:
TOUR06 INWARD SCREAM
TOUR07 INWARD SCREAM (U.S./CANADA)
TOUR07 THE MARROW OF A BONE
TOUR07 THE MARROW OF A BONE -PREMIUM LIVE-
DEFTONES U.S. TOUR 2007
SUMMER with DIR EN GREY and THE FALL OF TROY, Wacken Open Air, Ankkarock Festival, M'era Luna Festival
TOUR 07 DOZING GREEN
Do you guys notice those bolded parts? Yeah? THAT'S THE EFFIN LIVES I WHERE AT! THAT WE WERE AT! OUR MEMORIES, OUR LIVES! THEY HAVE MADE IT FOR A KNOT ONLY! MEANING ONLY THOSE EFFIN PRECIOUS JAPANESE FANS ARE THE ONLY ONES ALLOWED PURCHASING MY AND OUR EXPERIENCES ON A LEGAL DVD!!
Yeah. I never thought I'd feel this insulted by a band. But god damn! Lives to me at least are not just about the band, it's about the band and the fans together. We make something TOGETHER! We share all those feelings and precious moments TOGETHER! We were a part of those lives just as much as they were for fucks sake! How dare they take that away from us? Just to placate their Japanese fans because they are touring overseas? I mean if they can't handle that their pwecious band tour other places than Japan then SCREW THEM. I want my DVD! They can release two for fucks sake, and let us fans be able to have a physical memory of those times. And now The Pledge acoustic version began and the sky is blue and memories are flooding and I miss those days in Denmark and I just want to cry. Fuck them.
Dir en grey is of course not known as the best dudes when it comes to appreciating and showing concern towards their fans. There are a lot of stories where people feel completely ignored, even after having done a lot to try and make the band feel appreciated. Anyway, in the end it often turns out they're just awkward guys who don’t really know what to do with their new-won and strange fame. They're forgiven, mostly. I mean, it's about the music, we can let go of a lot of weirdeties from them. But... sometimes, it makes it really hard not to quirk and eyebrow and go major WTF-ing of their choice of behaviour towards their fans.
As some of you know, Dir en grey has a fanclub, it's called A knot. There's nothing weird or quirky about that right? Most of these bands do after all. A knot also happens to ONLY be open for people with a Japanese address. People not living in Japan? Well screw you mostly. Anyway, that is not TOO weird either. A bit sour for people who want to join, but still. Now, Dir en grey also happen to like to release a lot of exclusive DVDs for these precious A knot members, which we oversea fans obviously can't get a hold of unless it's illegal. NOW comes what majorly disappoints me and upsets me as a fan. DIR EN GREY RELEASE LIVE DVDS OF THE FOLLOWING FOR A KNOT ONLY:
TOUR06 INWARD SCREAM
TOUR07 INWARD SCREAM (U.S./CANADA)
TOUR07 THE MARROW OF A BONE
TOUR07 THE MARROW OF A BONE -PREMIUM LIVE-
DEFTONES U.S. TOUR 2007
SUMMER with DIR EN GREY and THE FALL OF TROY, Wacken Open Air, Ankkarock Festival, M'era Luna Festival
TOUR 07 DOZING GREEN
Do you guys notice those bolded parts? Yeah? THAT'S THE EFFIN LIVES I WHERE AT! THAT WE WERE AT! OUR MEMORIES, OUR LIVES! THEY HAVE MADE IT FOR A KNOT ONLY! MEANING ONLY THOSE EFFIN PRECIOUS JAPANESE FANS ARE THE ONLY ONES ALLOWED PURCHASING MY AND OUR EXPERIENCES ON A LEGAL DVD!!
Yeah. I never thought I'd feel this insulted by a band. But god damn! Lives to me at least are not just about the band, it's about the band and the fans together. We make something TOGETHER! We share all those feelings and precious moments TOGETHER! We were a part of those lives just as much as they were for fucks sake! How dare they take that away from us? Just to placate their Japanese fans because they are touring overseas? I mean if they can't handle that their pwecious band tour other places than Japan then SCREW THEM. I want my DVD! They can release two for fucks sake, and let us fans be able to have a physical memory of those times. And now The Pledge acoustic version began and the sky is blue and memories are flooding and I miss those days in Denmark and I just want to cry. Fuck them.
Monday, 21 January 2008
Some days I wish a normal life would be enough for me. That this excruciating desire to reach up and beyond wasn't so strong. That it didn't fill every second of my every day existance. Sometimes I wish a mediocre education and a nice job would be enough to get me through. Some days I wish that my want to live every second on the edge didn't overshadow what I do in my present. School is not enough, because I know it is only the beginning of a working life. Work is good, I wish I could work and get gratification out of it. I wish I could go on studying not feeling as if something screamed inside of me every day. I wish I wasn't so full of it, that nothing less but the grandest was good enough.
I wish life wasn't so painful. I am not talking about suffering in life, that things are so bad that it's painful. I am talking about that rush of life that runs through me all the time. That unfulfillment that tears at me so badly I think I am going mad.
I wish that I wasn't such a coward. That I could just up and go, and not worry about the consequences. Knowing I cannot ever be satisfied with a regular job, not of any kind, but still being uncertain whether I will ever gain the heights I want... I don't want to waste it, I don't want to waste my youth or my life. Going every day not getting closer at all. What if I went back to school? What would happen when I was done?
Not what I want. Not what I am supposed to be. Ever since I was a little child I knew that big would never be enough. If this had been a different era I would have been on my way up as an empress.
Do you guys think I have what it takes?
Blue days aren't sad days, but days with blue skies which makes me ache. It's a blue day today.
I need money too. Fuck that.
I wish life wasn't so painful. I am not talking about suffering in life, that things are so bad that it's painful. I am talking about that rush of life that runs through me all the time. That unfulfillment that tears at me so badly I think I am going mad.
I wish that I wasn't such a coward. That I could just up and go, and not worry about the consequences. Knowing I cannot ever be satisfied with a regular job, not of any kind, but still being uncertain whether I will ever gain the heights I want... I don't want to waste it, I don't want to waste my youth or my life. Going every day not getting closer at all. What if I went back to school? What would happen when I was done?
Not what I want. Not what I am supposed to be. Ever since I was a little child I knew that big would never be enough. If this had been a different era I would have been on my way up as an empress.
Do you guys think I have what it takes?
Blue days aren't sad days, but days with blue skies which makes me ache. It's a blue day today.
I need money too. Fuck that.
Tuesday, 15 January 2008
Not this again
Mothereffin winter needs to end. I must have spring NOW! This is not a discussion issue...I can't handle this fucking winter. I can't take the darkness, the coldness, the wetness and the lack of life... fuck if spring would just come... Every winter I am reduced to nothing but a pale, shrunken, ill looking, aggressive and worst of all, depressive thing which can't even be considered human. I can't deal. I just can't deal...
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