I am... a sick, sick person o_O! I think I'm developing a crush in a guy I absolutely despise and find disgusting. My first crush in over three years, and it's in a guy I don't even like! What the fuck is the matter with me?
During this last year he has given me a lot of attention, mostly negative I would say. But not until now recently have it made me blush and grin. His silly antics actually made me laugh today! Mostly it just makes me roll my eyes. He often runs around with a camera, taking pictures of everything and everyone. And though I usually get annoyed when he forces the camera up in my face, his insistence of taking pictures of my every move in English class today humoured me...
I don't know if there's a difference in him, but his attention seeking seems more caring now than it did before. Or maybe I'm so "vårkåt" (spring horny) I'll jump on anything passing me by... Sheesh I disgust myself.
When I thought about him in class today I found that I got butterflies in my stomach >_< WRYYYYYYYYYYYY?!?!?!?!

On a more positive side, I think I'm finally starting to get over my three long year crush in my best friend. That's always a positive? So maybe my attraction for weird, emolike guys is a positive thing.
I also came out of the closet to my best friend and a friend of her yesterday. In an argument, but never the less. It feels good to have it said. Of course, I still haven't told any one else. I feel it's kind of not their business, and my sexual orientation shouldn't matter to them. That, or I'm just a coward. Anyway.

I have been looking at this girl lately, and I decided to take up the courage and maybe get some connection with her. But of course she wasn't at the bus station, so I failed at that.

Enough of my non-existent and pathetic love life. I want to write a list of everything I'm looking forward to!

Siren's List of Things to Look Forward To:

- Easter holiday beginning tomorrow
- Sirenia concert on Saturday with Pusen!
- Visiting Linn next Saturday
- Within Temptation concert with friends!
- Being a russ
- GOTHIKA concert with Liz!
- End of school!! OMFGYAYS!
- Visiting Marko in Finland
- Ankarock festival with Liz and Suomi!
- Seeing Dir en grey in Denmark with Liz!


And I'm sure more things will be put up on that list as times go, but as of yet, I think that's a damn fine list ^__^